Holidays have never been a big thing in my house. Just the usual, family comes over, we have a big lunch and we all pretend to be fine. We smile and we laugh but the only thing i want to do is get away from there. To run and to not look back. I can feel that I’m not like them… not at all. They all have there lives set up for them… They know who they are going to become, the type of man they would like to marry, where they are going to live… everything. Then they all stare at me and wait to hear my plans. Like I have a fucking clue. I’m lost.. I don’t remember when I got off the path I was suppose to be on, but I know I haven’t been on it for a while.. How to get back on that path? Almost impossible. I hope I find my way back.